Some things to think about (at least for me to think about)

I was watching John Bytheway in sunday school. (I guess he may be kinda funny...haha) anyway, he said something that really caught my attention, for some reason. He was talking about the 2000 stripling warriors, and about when the Captain says "What say ye, my sons?" and he said that the stripling warriors thought "If we die, we'll be with God; if we live, God will be with us." He didn't even put much emphasis on the phrase, but I really thought about it for a long time. Later in the video, he was talking about Alma and Amulek, and he said that if we're still here, that our work is not yet finished. A lot of really hard things have been happening to me lately, and it's made me sort of reckless, which gets me into more trouble. I played around with the idea (not really seriously, of course) of what it would be like to get into a crash, and have everything just be over. To get to be let go from all the responsibilities and the hard things, and be able to just do missionary work on the other side. I guess I was looking forward too much to the being with God part. Of course, I was reckless because of my being so stressed out, and I got into a crash really soon after that, and so now I know I really don't want to be in any more. That's not the point, though. I guess what I'm trying to say is that it really put things into perspective for me. A million times I could have been in a different car crash (or maybe that same one) and been seriously injured, or worse. I think that I was supposed to be in that crash before I did anything that would have gotten me into a bigger, more dangerous one. A million times I could have gotten cancer, or fallen from something, or gotten in a jet ski accident, or have died from a heart problem I didn't even know about. But it wasn't me, and it wasn't me for a reason. I still have things to do here, and I know because I am here. I guess I just kinda realized why I have to keep trying, and why I have to keep holding on, and why I have to keep on caring. But as long as I live, I know that my Heavenly Father will be with me just like he was with the 2000, and all the other people living and dead. Anywho, maybe this is too spiritual or just too much of my ramblings for this blog, but here it is.